Hailie

Friday, June 30, 2006

Karen's Crazy World Episode 1 - PART 2 (and then some...)

*Hailie is still dazed about the Charles episode. I honestly thought that yesterday, the episode was already over. I was feeling okay, calm even, about the whole thing. But...

Let's see where this goes and maybe I'll post another full entry someday. For now, I'd like to keep mum.

*Devils are wearing high-heeled shoes nowadays. They're not necessarily Prada. They can be locally-made - Manel's and Rusty Lopez. Right, Annabs? Since Hailie's all set to close the gay vocalist episode and bury him alive, err, I mean the episode, I decided it's high time I post part 2 of episode 1. Auf Wiedersehen, gay vocalist...ruhen Sie in Frieden.

Karen's Crazy World Episode 2: "This Shouldn't Have Happened In The First Place And It Will Never Happen Again...MARK MY WORDS - Part 2" (May 7)

Hailie's taking a different route this time. Since she's started to let go of this gay vocalist issue, she decided not to detail episode 2 as much the first one. Still, this is going to be an interesting read. So, here it is...

Sunday is my only off in the whole week so I decided to bond with my borther who's going back to Bicol in a few days. We went shopping. We were eating at Karate Kid when Kints texted saying that gay vocalist was inviting us for a drink. Apparently, it was his birthday! Huwaw...what a coincidence. There was no mention of this whatsoever last time we saw them. But okay, we went there.

All the way to Project 4 (where most of the band members lived), we - meaning Annabs and I - were apprehensive of the trip because we were not even sure if the invitation included us. But then, kahit na nagdadalawang isip, nakarating din kami doon.

When we met-up with gay vocalist, we all greeted him a happy birthday, only to be apprehended because it was NOT his birthday but their drummer's. Which is really weird because we NEVER met the drummer last time. But since we're already there, we still pushed through.

Just a side note: we passed this ukay-ukay and I finally was able to buy this Hello Kitty doll - the McDo one, where she was in a Japanese wedding dress - I've been pining for in the longest time.

Back to the story. When we reached the bassist's house (because that's where the inuman will take place), here's where the plot really thickens. Birthday boy was not there yet. Nagsisimba daw. And at 11 wala pa din siya. Wow, religious masyado...wala nang misa nasa simbahan pa din. Anyways, this is where Hailie cuts everything. All she'll say at this point is that she kissed gay vocalist again. And again. And again. And she can't count how many agains there were that night. The funny thing, she tried her hardest not to answer questions of "Kayo na ba?" the whole night eventhough she and gay vocalist are holding hands and blatantly making out. She didn't want to answer bacause it was such a highschoolish question and HELLO!!! It was only the second time she saw gay person so HOW ON EARTH COULD THEY BE "ON". Besides, they haven't really talked, just... Back to the story. So there, she buffered "Kayo na ba?" questions only for gay vocalist to announce, "Oo, kami na." WHAAAAT?!?! But Hailie did not exactly say "No" so maybe she has a fault but then, her head was spinning in alcohol. (Notice that since this paragraph's seventh sentence, I referred to myself in the third person becasue I can't bear to think that these actually happened to ME.)

So okay, this next one's just so hilarious. In the cab, when I was about to go home, he went with me and I dropped him off to his house. On the way, he whispered, "Kanina sana I wanted to make love to you." And I had to turn my head away so he won't see that I'm keeping myself from laughing. My gawd, whoever uses the words, "wanted to make love to you" these days?! Hay, what did I expect from a 19-year old guy who has more intricate hair care procedure than me?

But things didn't end there. I'll not go into details. Basta, we just found out that gay vocalist has a girlfriend of almost two years now. The thing is, I received this text message from the supposed girlfriend asking for my prayers since it's her board exams. WTF?!?! I had a strong feeling gay vocalist is taking me for a spin. GRR.

Oh well, the episode's long past. I came to a point that I wanted revenge, declaring that I'm going to give him hell. But then, as time passes, na-da...I don't feel the urge to bitch him around anymore. I just want closure. But this is now, that I'm in the sanctity of a calm Hailie's mind. We'll never know what devil will come out when Hailie sees gay vocalist again.

But for now, I can honestly say...case closed.

Feeling:

Excited and uber pa-cute
All ears: 'Wag Mo Na Sana Parokya ni Edgar

| hAiLiE posted at 3:04:00 PM | |

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

MUSH: Hailie on Charles - A Long Forgotten Chapter (Supposed to be...)

Hailie wanted her next entry to be part two of Episode 1 but a recent event has caused her world to turn upside down and she knew she wanted to write about this recent event first.

Being in love is the nicest feeling one can ever have. Yet sometimes, as nice as the feeling was, they don't always last. And no matter how much you thrive in pain, you always have to come to a point when you have to let go of past loves that can never be revived.

There will still be moments when you'd think about this particular guy and the moments you shared together. You'll go from bitter to sad to passive to thankful and happy that at least, for a moment, you get to have him in your life. When that happens, you'll finally feel that you're ready to move on. You tell yourself that you're willing to let go. Whence before, when dwelling on love's dark past you were on shaky grounds, now you are confident you can move to that corner on two steady feet. Then you face life straight in the eye and say, "I'm ready. Throw me anything that you have and I can take it." That's when you remember that you should be careful what you wish for - because then you'll realize that life throws mean curveballs and she throws them when you least expect it.

Just recently, I decided to let go of this love I've harbored for almost two years. I've gone through everything I've mentioned above. And although I was still hoping for a closure, I knew I was never gonna get it. So I stood my ground and faced life, saying, "This is the end of the line for Charles and me. Let me move on. Give me anything you can and I'll be able to handle it." Then here comes life playing her tricks on me. After almost seven months of non-communication, you cannot exactly blame me if I assume that life wanted me to close that Charles chapter in my life. I was doing pretty great with moving on yet all it took was four words from him to shatter my world again. Four words - hoy.. haha.. la lang... - that meant exactly nothing but had great power when said to someone who's been hanging on for seven months. Then all your resolve crumbles down to pieces because everything boils down to those four words you thought you'd never say again: I still love him.

My good friend Val once told me that it's a big wonder, because ex-lovers seem to have this radar - they seem to know when you're all ready to move on. And eventhough they haven't talked to you in God knows how long, once you've made up your mind to let go, they come rushing back in your life...

Is this just a test? Well, if it is, then I'm failing miserably. Because...

I still love him.

Feeling:

Confused
All ears: 3 Libras A Perfect Circle

| hAiLiE posted at 6:27:00 PM | |

Saturday, June 24, 2006

A Break From Crazy Episodes

Met up with Mae Anne last night at Starbucks Morato and ended up in The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf. This is what happened: She sent me an SMS inviting me for coffee, something that has become a habit for us when we're undergoing or have undergone a particularly low point in our lives. Since I've just picked up from a "I don't want to work anymore" and "I don't want to be with gay vocalists anymore" episodes, I excitedly said yes to her invite. As usual, prompt Hailie arrived before Mae Anne (oh, 'wag ka na umangal Marie Ann...kailan ka nauna sa'kin aber? Haha! Peace!). I waited in Starbucks for 15 minutes in all my tube dress glory. Then Mae Anne finally arrives, with a, "Ano ba hinid kape dito?" To which I answered, "Err, non-caffeine frappe?" And my best friend says that she still gets headaches from drinking such concoctions. Okay. So I suggested that we troop over to my favorite coffee place (Coffee Bean)...na nakakahiya kasi the guard at Starbucks pa nmana was smiling at me and struck a samll conversation pa...tapos hindi din pala kami 'dun magse-stay! Haha! ^^

And so Coffee Bean it was. Just like all of my rendezvous with this college best friend, there were a lot of talikng, and laughing, and clearing of my thoughts. Always, always, mae manages to keep blurry things in clear perspective. Sigh, thanks my dear! And the highlight of the night was...Alyssa Alano. You might ask, "Who the heck is Alyssa Alano?!" Okay, let me share...

When there was lag in our conversation, Mae Anne mentioned about this forgotten little-known Hot Babe, whose name Mae Anne didn't remember, making a comeback as a singer. Said Hot Babe guested on German "Walang Tulugan" Moreno's Master Showman and sang Kiss Me (originally by Sixpence None The Richer). And the way she sang the song was, "Keys me..." If you thought that was funny, here's the killer line: "Silver moon sbarkley"!!! When Lars Santiago interviewed the poor(?) girl, she defended herself and said that she really rehearsed the song. So when asked for a repeat performance, she still sang it this way: "Keys me..." When she got to the killer line, she acted surprised and really ashamed saying that she got "sbarkley" wrong. She repeated the line and it went, "Silver moon sfarkley". OMG!

When I repeated the story to my officemates, we all broke down in laughter. Then Rem commented, "Nasa YouTube 'yan!" Thus began the sacred search for the performance. And voila! We didn't only get the video, we got the name of the girl plus the lyrics! Here's the video, click play, pump up the volume, and follow along with the lyrics provided below!

Keys Me
Alyssa Alano

Keys me
Beat in the verdict valeey
Nightlee, v-side the green green grass
Swing swing,
Swing the spinny stef
You wer the shoes
And i will wear the dress
Ohhh...

Keys me
V-neat d milke twalay
Leeeep me
Al-out the moonlit floor
Leaf your open hand
Strike entebend
End make d parflays dance
Sylvimousse is barkley
So keys me...

Keys me...
Down by-da flowcan
3 how...
Twin vee
Of funne hungee Tay
Bring bring
Bring yo flower head
Will take dachay
Make on yours father's melt
Ohhh...

Keys me
V-neat the milke twalay
Tixt me
Al-out the moonlit floor
Leaf your open hand
Strike entebend
End make d parflays dance
Sylvimousse is barkley
So keys me...

Keys me
V-neat the milke twalay
Leeeeeep me
Al-out the moonlit floor
Leaf your open hand
Strike entebend
End make d parflays dance
Sylvimousse is barkley
So keys me...

So keys me...

So keys me...

So keys me...

So keys me...

| hAiLiE posted at 4:49:00 PM | |

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Karen's Crazy World Episode 1 - PART 1

What is new in Hailie's blog? One, the pink and summer-y skin is out...since, obviously, summer's already said her goodbye (eventhough recently, the weather's just been crazee - going from skorchingly hot to rainy). Since Hailie is feeling happy, welcome the new still pink but Hello Kitty-ish look. Number two, I'm sporting a new URL: http://ulzzanghailie.blogspot.com. Leading us to the third change: the name of the blog has gone from "Hailie's Jaded" to plain "Hailie". And last but certainly not the least - A NEW BLOG ENTRY! Since A LOT has happened during my silence from the blogging world, I won't be squeezing everything in one entry. Instead, I'll be giving the details in epsiodes. So here's episode number one. Read on my dear friends...

Episode 1: "This Shouldn't Have Happened In The First Place And It Will Never Happen Again...MARK MY WORDS" (May 4 going May 5)

There are some things that you don't want to immortalize. But they are things that are so pivotal in your life that you know you just have to etch them in the history of your life. And the events I'm about to divulge are certainly some of those things.

I met a guy (even if he was gay, he can still qualify as a guy, right?). And I kissed him. Once. Twice. Okay, infinite times...in a span of two days. Have you ever made a mistake and then later on you just charge it to experience? He was certainly a mistake. But I don't think it was a learning experience. Yet it was certainly funny...my friends and I have filed it under “Hey it's boring, let's tickle out bones with that story of yours.”

Details. Annabs and I went to the Creed of Rock Productions gig in Kolumn bar last Thursday, May 4. One of the bands – uhm, let's not name them – approached CORP and invited them for a drink. Now let's talk about this band...or at least it's vocalist. To be honest, we don't remember much about the band's performance. The only thing I remember (and quite vividly!) was that the moment they went on stage, I thought to myself, “Bakla itong bokalista na 'to!” And Annabs seemed to agree when she asked, “Karen, bading ba 'yung bokalista nila?” To which I answered, “Mukhang.” Sabay “Ay, no doubt.” when said vocalist made a sexy dance step in front of their guitarist (who was major hot, by the way...or at least that's what I thought until after episode two). And so, back to the inuman thingy.

Being CORP friends (loyalists?) that we are – or maybe it's just the lure of cheaper beer (Kolumn sells beer at around 50 bucks!!!) - Annabs and I tagged along. In the spirit of “getting to know each other”, I let myself be seated beside the gay vocalist. He and his bandmates kept firing CORP-related questions at me. Remember, I'm not a CORP member. But Kints, who was just in front of me and is a certified Creed of Rock-er, let me endure the torture for 45 minutes before declaring “Hindi siya CORP.” So all clear. Suddenly, gay vocalist kept asking silly questions (“Ate, ate, ilang taon ka na?”, “Ate, ate, saan ka nag-aaral?”, etc.) in a whispering manner that is not a whisper at all because even the people at the end of the table can hear him. Later on, when I stood up, my ultra fashionable belt (the one with little circles and the one for which Annabs and I scanned both ends of Divisoria for) fell. And gay vocalist picked it up and puts it in his shoulder in fashion of a beauty contestant. And I didn't have the guts to yank it from him. So I just let him assure me that he will be returning my belt. (Hello! It's 150 bucks and napagod ako kakalakad sa Divi mahanap lang 'yun! Tapos mapupunta sa isang taong hindi ko naman masyadong kilala?!?!) After some assurance, I let him hold on to the belt. I had no choice but to trust him eventhough the belt was already tucked in his bag.

A few more Red Horse later and I felt that familiar sour taste in my mouth. I wanted something sweet. So Hailie goes to nearby sari-sari store and bought a Milo sachet (yes...pinapapak ko siya). When I got back, everybody is seated in different chairs. But curses, I still ended beside gay vocalist! Actually, we just switched places. And Julayuz and Kints had this "wonderful" (note: the words are in quotation marks) idea. They will be kissing each other as long as Joann and the guy beside her plus me and gay vocalist will do the same -- all in the name of fun (and 50 bucks). I was put on spot. And I can't say no (yes Annabs, I'm admitting it!). When gay vocalist gave 100 (which he snipped from their bassist), I knew there was no turning back. So we kissed. In front of everybody -- there about 15 of us. And he blushed. And I blushed...but at least I had my blush-on to blame. And everything felt weird. We suddenly didn't talk to each other. And I didn't like it. Everybody was teasing us. Just to ease up the teasings and to show that I wasn't affected by the kiss, I faced gay vocalist and said, in what I hoped was a straight face and an unshaky voice, "All good?" Sabay thumbs up. When he nodded, sabi ko pa, "Apir!" for more 'hindi ako tinablan' emphasis. To be honest -- since I believe that honesty is the best policy (err, not always...but to make sure I'm sticking to the facts, I'll believe in the age-old adage in this situation) -- I liked the kiss. For the sake of Annabs and Kints who might think their eyes were deceiving them: I liked the kiss. But not because gay vocalist is a good kisser. He isn't. And remember, I'm sticking to the facts. I liked it because I haven't been kissed...for a long time. Mga one month. Lol.

Okay. So the place was about to close. Yet people still wanted to drink. So we trooped to Sizzling Stop Morato. This time, I made sure I was far away from gay vocalist. Then I went to the CR. And when I got back, well whaddya know?! HE WAS SEATED BESIDE THE ONLY BLANK CHAIR!!! MY chair. Apparently, nag-regroup. Now, who put him beside me? Ewan ko. Rawr.

So I expected this episode to be uneventful. But it wasn't...unlucky me. I was facing the other way because I didn't really want to interact with him. Then he whispered to me, "Baba mo 'to." while touching my leg, which was in a cross-leg position. And I ask, "Bakit?!?!" He just repeated, "Baba mo." So I did. And guess what he did: he put his legs on top of mine. And to be honest, at that moment, tunay akong nagalit sa earth. But being the good girl that I am, all I said was "Mabigat kaya" in a kind, pa-cute (albeit hindi ako nagpapa-cute sa kanya!!!) voice -- you know, that tone you use when you're talking to somebody you don't really like but you're trying to be polite and patient with him. Then he answered me with this, "Nakapatong din naman 'yung paa ko sa table stand kaya 'yung weight ko andun." Rawr. Fine...stupid me, I let it be. Then there was nothing else that happened. Everybody had around two rounds of beer again then went home. Of course, Annabs, Kints, and I had our own drinking session after that -- coffee drinking, that is. We had a recap of the crazy day/night. And the gay vocalist epiosode should have ended there. Should have is the operative term.

More of the f*cking @$$hole in part 2 of episode one.

| hAiLiE posted at 7:12:00 PM | |