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Hailie

To find someone you love, You gotta be someone you love. To find someone you love, You gotta call your own bluff. -"Concrete Bed", Nada Surf

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We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be? (from OUR DEEPEST FEAR by Marianne Williamson)

Hailie is a 23 24 year-old girl who moves in the sometimes harsh reality under the name Karen. She loves reading, especially classical books and books written by Jeffrey Archer. She is a self-confessed ham who loves taking the center stage. She loves dancing and singing - but that doesn't mean she knows how to dance and sing. Her never-wavering dream is to become an actress...no kidding. A DVD addict, her favorite shopping places are Quiapo and Divisoria. She also recently discovered St. Francis Square, where she now shops for clothes, shoes, and anything Hello Kitty. Currently dreaming of owning an PlayStation PortableiTouch, pink Moto Razr Okwap i885, a portable DVD player, and the black pink DS Lite. She salivates everytime she sees the still-to-be-released recently-released Sony PlayStation 3 and Nintendo Wii. In love with life, love, and Frank Lampard Brandon Routh Joo Ji-hoon Milo Ventimiglia Daniel Henney (the last item changes from time to time...shifts from Rafael Nadal to Won Bin to Josh Hartnett or whoever). Her ultimate goal in life is to die happy.



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Sunday, February 08, 2009

Of the past and its effects on Hailie

Three pseudo-relationships. All ending up with the guy 'cheating'. End result is Hailie with a broken, nay MANGLED, heart. I remember her saying, a month after the last guy ripped her heart apart and amidst buckets and buckets and buckets of tears, that she'll never love the same way again. Or that perhaps she'll never really love again.

And I thought she meant that she'll never enter a psuedo-relationship again. That she'll stop being so giving. That the next time around, she'll be as heartless as the guys who've broken her heart have been.

That's what she thought as well.

And we were both wrong.

She did let herself enter another pseudo-relationship. She never stopped giving. And she can never bring herself to being as heartless as all those guys who've broken her heart.

So what's changed?

She doesn't know how to trust anymore. Her once blind faith has been totally wiped out...

Perhaps because of her failed relationships, she's resorted to always thinking that her guy will cheat on her eventually. So that when it finally happens, it will be easier to accept. So now, every little thing make her doubt... And she's almost sure that when things end with her current psuedo-relationship, it's because the guy cheated on her.

But she's soon realizing that being in the other end of the spectrum is not a good thing as well. She ends up being too much to bear that she ends up pushing people away.

She badly needs to find her middle ground. Soon.


Feeling: Photobucket bored
All ears to: the TV, showing October Road
Curled up in bed with: Tuesdays with Morrie Mitch Albom

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| hAiLiE posted at 12:22:00 PM | |

Zenni Optical makes the New York Times

"Seeing Straight Without Breaking the Bank", goes the New York Times' article about Zenni Optical.

I can just hear some of you saying, "Zenni Optical in the New York Times?!"

Oh yes. And why not? Zenni Optical sells Prescription eyeglasses for only $8! That in itself merits it a space in the New York Times. what's even newsworthy is the fact that not only are Zenni Optical glasses cheap, they're also very, very stylish. Take this choice of mine for example (the 4620 Metal Alloy / Stainless Steel Half-Rim Frame):

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Aside from this Zenni Optical glass coming in my favorite pink (and also black, purple, blue, gold, gray, and silver), the glass is also uber simple it just screams of class.

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So if you're in the market for a really good pair of glasses that does not 'break the bank', head over to Zenni Optical's site.


| hAiLiE posted at 9:20:00 AM | |

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Random thoughts on a lazy Sunday morning

friends with benefit

...is fun. But can get pretty tiring. Especially when you've started to invest more than you should.

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I woke up to a dramatic SMS from a really good gay friend. S/he shared about how a months long unrequited love is still making him/her shed tears. And I honestly, honestly felt the pain.

It's easy to say, "Move on. There are still other fishes in the ocean." but when you're in that position where my friend is (and where I once was - is?), it's hard to heed that advice. Because deep inside, you do know that letting go and moving on is the best thing to do but that no matter what you do you just can't seem to do so. It's not stubbornness; it's that hope that perhaps you didn't make a wrong decision after all and that one day, your love becomes not so unrequited after all. Choosing to hang on may be a stupid decision, but as they say, heart is the dumb blonde of the body and no matter what you tell it, it stands with its stupidity.

All these makes me remember the latest McDonald's commercial...the one that makes me teary-eyed everytime I see it:



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For some weird reason, I feel like The Cranberries' Linger is my 'song of the moment'.

Sigh.



Feeling: Photobucket melancholic
All ears to: Stars: The Best of 1992 - 2002 The Cranberries
Curled up in bed with: A Personal History Katharine Graham

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| hAiLiE posted at 10:27:00 AM | |

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Saturday survey

...para matuwa-tuwa naman ako. (Ninenok kay Olai)

1. What is your best friend's name?
Erm, andami nila eh. Hehe!

2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Black lacy underwear. OO, dapat vivid description. Haha!

3. What are you listening to right now?
Secondhand Serenade's "Awake" and "A Twist In My Story" albums. The first one's still way better.

Awake A Twist In My Story

4. What's your favorite number?
For some weird reason, I love the number 8. Must be the curves. ^shrugs^ I also love 25. Because it holds something significant for me (no, not my age)...

5. What was the last thing you ate?
A Crunch chocolate, post breakfast of tortang talong and kanin.

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
PINK!!!


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7. How is the weather right now?
Sunny and windy at the same time. Come to think of it, the perfect weather to stay out. Pero tinatamad ako, that's why I just decided to stay home and park myself in front of the PC. LOL.

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
"TL" Biloy called, asking me if I wanted to transfer to the graveyard shift. (NooooOOOOOoo!!!)

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Hmmn. The bukge? Hahaha! Nah...second na lang 'yun. It's the smile. Hehe...

10. Do you have a significant other?
Nope.

11. Favorite TV show(s)?
Ugly Betty, Grey's Anatomy, House, American Idol, and October Road.

12. Siblings?
A younger sister and brother.

13. Height?
5'1"

14. Hair color?
Black

15. Eye Color?
Black

16. Do you wear contacts?
Nope.

17. Favorite Holiday?
Halloween!! Tee-hee.

18. Favorite Month?
Summer months, April and May!

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
Yes. Because I tend to be a bit on the paranoid side. Haha! Pero binabalanse ko naman...tumatawa din ako for no reason. LOL.

20. What was the last movie you watched?
Sa Cinemas? Hmmn...I think it was "Desperadas 2" with Jen and Loki. Haha! Watched "Malena" at home just the other day.

21. Favorite Day of the Year?
Hmmn. None in particular.

22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Sometimes. But mostly not. Haha!

23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
No...

24. Hugs or Kisses?
Dahil maganda ang sagot ni Olai, gagayahin ko lang sagot niya --> hug AND kisses... and so much more! bwahahahaha

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
CHOCOLATE, hands down!

26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
Err, bahala sila.

27. Who is most likely to respond?
...

28. Who is least likely to respond?
...

29. What books are you reading?
Katharine Graham's "A Personal History" and "Ladies' Erotica" (hindi joke 'yung last one).

30. Piercings?
Ears and navel.

31. Favorite movies?
Super dami! But "Sympathy for Lady Vengeance", "Beauty and the Beast", and "Monster" top the list.

32. Favorite football team?
Err, am not into football.

33. What were u doing before this?
Watching "House".

34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Buttered and salted!

37. Dogs or cats?
Not much into pets but dogs, I guess.

38. Favorite flower?
Tulips and white roses.

39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
HAHAHAHAHA!!! 'Yun lang.

40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
Yup.

41. Have you ever loved someone?
Yeah. Fell in love twice.

42. Who would you like to see right now?
My college and high school friends! And Jeypi.

43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
Hmmn. I don't think so. Haha, I don't remember who my classmates were back then.

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
Yup, during Sir Palmones's BC 186 Seminar in Broadcasting class. And I wanna do it again!!!

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Yeah. But I like travelling by water more.

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right-handed.

47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Usually three. Pero kapag may katabi, isa lang pede na. Hahaha!

48. Are you missing someone?
Yeshie.

49. Do you have a tattoo?
No. I'd like to get one pero papatayin ako nang nanay ko if I ever do that.

50. Anybody on Friendster that you'd go on a date with?
... ... ...

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| hAiLiE posted at 3:19:00 PM | |

I'm beginning to think...

...that I'm just a meantime girl. broken heart


Feeling: Photobucket pensive
All ears to: Forget About Me A Little Bit
Curled up in bed with: A Personal History Katharine Graham

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| hAiLiE posted at 11:02:00 AM | |

Saturday, November 29, 2008

He's coming to the big screen. WHEE!

Lots of things to blog about but I just HAVE to repost this. Taken from Olai:

Astroboy silhouette

Oh yes! Oh yes! Oh yes!!! Astro Boy's going to the big screen! Set to come out on October 2009, the movie will be produced by Imagi Studios and will be in 3D. I'm not sure though if that will work well with me. I'd eternally prefer this:

Astro Boy

over how the movie will look like:

3D Astro Boy

But with top-billed actors voicing the film (Nicolas Cage, Kristen Bell, Donald Sutherland, Nathan Lane, Bill Nighy, Eugene Levy, Matt Lucas and Freddie Highmore), Astro Boy just might turn out to be one highly-anticipated movie. And the trailer's also looking good. Check it out:


More details in the movie's official site.

Whee! Astro Boy!!! (Sorry, just had to squeeze that in.)


Feeling: Photobucket happy
All ears to: Miss Saigon Soundtrack London Cast
Curled up in bed with: The Kitchen God's Wife Amy Tan

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| hAiLiE posted at 7:36:00 PM | |

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Movie in triplicate

(A post...FINALLY.)

Got home last night at around 11 pm and I'm now groggy as hell at 6 am, trying to get myself in work mode (yeshie, guilty as charged: am posting this while at work *ibil grin*). But it's all good, because yesterday was such a happy day spent with a good friend, trippin' at the mall. What was supposed to be a trip to have my ears pierced and our feet (or backs) massaged ended up being a movie marathon at Glorietta 4.

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We started the after-shift date with James Bond. I've never been a big Bond film fan - fan of Bond actors, yes (Sean Connery and Pierce Brosnan, anyone?), but not Bond films. I've never really seen a single Bond film so I cannot explain the aversion, save for maybe because it's just too, uh, manly for me. The "new love interest every movie" doesn't mesh well with me either. So when my friend asked (cajoled?) me to give Quantum of Solace a chance, I was really iffy. But spending for tickets for this Marc Forster-directed film was worth it. Contrary to my prejudice, this Bond film actually had a story to tell. And Forster was wonderful in that he injected a lot of pretty and amazing juxtapositions into the movie. The chase scene right after the movie's OBB was especially remarkable -- I loved how Forster smoothly transitioned Palio di Siena from being a background to a foreground. There were at least two more scenes of the same style, demonstrating the director's mastery of this seat-grasping style. Other things worked to the film's advantage: it was action packed, it still had its share of pretty women fawning over Bond, etc. And oh yeah, Daniel Craig's bluest of blue eyes sure can make a woman glued to her movie seat.

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Next up on our movie list was Sex Drive, but not before we had dinner at Wendy's -- a dinner that was both nice and cozy as we got to talk and talk and talk and eat delicious burgers while talking. Sean Anders' Sex Drive (apparently, there was a Tagalog Sex Drive film directed by Robert Quebral) pleased my movie companion as he says he loves watching films where the 'loser' guy end up being cool. As for me, I enjoyed the film: it was good for a couple of afternoon laughs and momentary kilig. Josh Zuckerman, who played the starring role, looks like your typical coming-of-age star; and James Marsden, who played the "tough but apparently secretly gay" older brother, was enough eye candy for the film. I loved how they made Clark Duke, who is not your typical "come hither, I'm hot" guy, the one character that always gets the girl. Seth Green was also just plain lovable. Sex Drive was a little on the predictable side, being a mish-mash of everything American Pie, Road Trip, and Harold and Kumar, but it was still a nice to movie to watch when all you want is to just sit back and have fun.

Speaking of fun, my friend and I had loads more of that as we trooped our way into Time Zone. Karen realized that she misses the arcade. She still loses in linked hoops game and rounds of air hockey but she doesn't care -- she's having too much fun to care. Even with her friend constantly teasing her and calling her a wuss, Karen still remains happily flushed from all the playing.

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The night was capped with a dose of Madagascar 2: Escape to Africa, where my friend suddenly felt all tired and apologetically dozed off towards the end of the film. I, on the other hand, laughed my way throughout the movie. There were "aaw" moments as well -- my heart melted when Melman told Moto Moto (the name's so sexy, you gotta say it twice...lol) to treat Gloria like a queen and to bring her flowers ("Tulips are her favorite flowers," Melman dramatically declares) everyday. There were also moments when the movie lagged and I felt like dozing off myself but overall, it was as funny as the first one. Gotta love those penguins!

When the third movie we watched ended, I had no choice but to let go of my friend...lol -- I was still in the mood to watch Burn After Reading but I knew I'd be heartless if I force him to sit through another movie when he can barely keep his eyes open.

The day was uber tiring. But it was fun. I liked that I got to meet his high school best friend, whom we bumped into at the movie ticket line. I liked that we can still sit down for dinner and have honest-to-goodness conversations. And I liked that, at this point, I still am pretty much happy just spending time with my friend...

This is all for me now. Heads up: Baguio post, coming soon.

Ciao!


Feeling: Photobucket Photobucket sleepy but uber happy
All ears to: Broken Secondhand Serenade (plus the office noise, agents taking calls)
Curled up in bed with: The Female Eunuch Germaine Greer and The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty Anne Rice

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| hAiLiE posted at 6:00:00 AM | |

Monday, June 02, 2008

Roland Garros 2008!!!

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Ok, so I've been too busy (or too...heartbroken?) that I haven't really noticed that Roland Garros 2008 (a.k.a. French Open) has already started. Thanks to my channel-surfing uncle, I glimpsed my most-awaited tennis court (clay, baby, clay) being played. It's my favorite, obviously, because it's where my beloved Rafael Nadal reigns supreme.

And he's still raking in the wins.

He has now eased into the 4th round and another Nadal-Federer toss-up is in the horizon. As I'm typing this entry, my baby's making a killing against another Spanish guy -- no. 22, Fernando Verdasco.

I'm getting excited... I live for the tennis season(s)! ^__^;;


Feeling: Photobucket excited
All ears to: live performances from Dicta License and Urbandub (listen to them here)
Curled up in bed with: New Moon Stephanie Meyer, Fear of Flying Erica Jong, and Haunted Chuck Palahniuk

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| hAiLiE posted at 12:47:00 AM | |

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Lesson learned

In an attempt to escape from my reality, I watched 27 Dresses the other day. James Marsden's character said something that struck me:


"I think you deserve more than what you settle for... I think you deserve to be taken care of."


Someday soon, that one person I truly deserve will come walking into my life.

(P.S. I do believe in karma. I'm leaving it all to faith...baby.)


Feeling: Photobucket pensive
All ears to: Almost Lover A Fine Frenzy
Curled up in bed with: Haunted Chuck Palahniuk and New Moon Stephenie Meyer

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| hAiLiE posted at 5:06:00 AM | |

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

"Hindi bagay sa'yo ang cheap. Hindi bagay sa'yo ang karma."

...'yan ang sabi sa'kin ni Mabie nang mag-kape kami kagabi sa Gloria Jean's V.A. Rufino. Kasama namin si Karl. Tatawa-tawa lang siya. Pero alam ko kahit paano, agree siya sa sinabi ni Princess. Sa panahong 'yun, nararamdaman ko nang nangingilid ang mga luha sa aking mata. Sabay humirit pa siya ng,

"You're too good of a person for that."

Gusto ko na noon umiyak. Pero hindi pa din rumolyo ang mga luha. Sa sarili ko kasi, ayokong isipin na may ginagawa akong ka-cheapan. O na may cause para ma-alarma ako na hahagupitin ako ni karma ng napakalupit. Sa isip ko, this is a way for me to save myself from too much pain. Na ayoko lang matali sa isang sitwasyon kung saan sa dulo ako na naman ang talo.

Pero sa dulo, napag-isip pa din ako. Bakit umiyak ang una kong reaksyon? Kasi alam ko din, kahit paano, tama si Mabie. Slut has never been my forte. I'm playful, yeah. I may be open to try new stuff here and there and willing to learn new things but I've always been the "bubbly, secretly hopeless romantic" one. The one who, despite being a hurt a couple of times, keeps her belief in being happy with just the one. I always fall hard. I keep crushes yeah, but I've always been the loyal one. I still am. But I came so close to being that one girl whom everybody brands as "easy". Nang sabihin sa'kin ni Mambie na I shouldn't be blowing my chances with this one person, 'dun ka na-realize kung bakit ginusto kong umiyak. Kasi naalala ko na in the deepest wells of my heart, I want things to work out with him. That at the end of the day, kahit ayoko lang matali sa isang sitwasyon kung saan sa dulo ako na naman ang talo (gaya nang nasabi ko na), I'd still willingly throw everything away para matali sa kanya. At alam kong hindi ako talo.

At isa pa. Masaya din naman maging hopeless romantic. It's like being a kid forever; which means that even as your classmates tease you so hard, you still hold on to the hope that Santa Claus will give you a gift on Christmas night if you become good all year round; and that the tooth fairy will leave you some cash if you leave your tooth underneath your pillow; and that the Care Bears do exist; and that you can be one of the Bioman if you wish it really hard. Yeah, just holding on to the hope that love can be true and love can be pure and love can -- eventually -- be bliss is a happy thought. Just as much as the feeling of being in love itself.

At doon ko na-conclude...

Hindi bagay sa'kin ang cheap. Hindi bagay sa'kin ang karma. I'm too good of a person for that.

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| hAiLiE posted at 7:24:00 AM | |

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

The first (and hopefully not the last) letter

Dear,

All I expected to come out of our first meeting was a light, cutesy flirting moment. I never thought that that 15minutes of coaching session will lead me to now, a moment when I feel like I'm lost when I don't see you around. When I get paranoid when you don't text back. When I'd feel a stab of jealousy everytime you think of your "alaga". I never wanted things to get this deep. Not now. Not ever.

See, I have commitment issues. This is not saying that we're already in a commited relationship, but sometimes it feels that way. And those sometimes are enough to make me feel guarded. For someone who falls so easily (I hate admitting that but it's unfortunately true), I have a heart that has big, strong walls. I've put up these walls caerfully after being hurt numerous times before. I know that guys can be huge a$$holes at times and that no matter how stubborn my heart can be, falling even to the baddest boy of them all, I'll never, ever be the fist to say, "Hey, I love you." I've never been in a relationship to date because of this. I think it's only now that I realize that I've forever been in pseudo-relationships because of my own choosing. Pseudo-relationships come with the perks of relationships, sans the things that make me fear them: the bounds, the restrictions, the possibility of a heartache. Yeah, heartaches may also come with pseudo-relationships but they hurt less and sometimes are easier to soothe.

So here I am. 25 years of age. With a heart that's been bruised and broken a couple of times. And a defense that, I thought, is harder to break -- especially after my last heartache. Then you come walking into my life. And you come armed with a sensitivity that is slowly melting all my defenses away. And as much as it makes me afraid, I can't deny that I want it all. That despite this sense of an impending heart ache (aren't all love stories built that way -- impending heart aches?), I'm willing to risk my heart once again.

Less than a month ago, I was telling one of my closest wavemates that I'm not going to give in. That despite your oh-so-wonderful words, I'm going to stick to my resolve: that I'm just going to have pure fun. No strings attached. But recently, when you walked into your favorite pizza place and told me you loved me, my resolve dissolved. And I wanted to say "I love you back" but I was still struggling to keep a piece of my old self. I was debating with myself whether what we have is worth leaving my comfort zone. And I think I hurt you by not saying those words back. But I figured if you really loved me, you'll let me take my sweet time.

What's the point of this letter then? To let you know that I love what we have. That I'm happy being with you. That in fact, I've never been happier. But that if I can't say the words back, it's not because I don't love you. It's just that I'm still struggling to keep my ground. To convince myself that letting go of my single blessedness ain't that bad.

Stay. The same way I said I'll wait...


Karen

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| hAiLiE posted at 7:47:00 AM | |

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Hailie's back with a corny post...

Lotsa things to blog about. But I don't have the time right now. So I'm just going to post this entry I've typed weeks ago...sorry for the mush...

"Of Trouble Sleeping"

It was a surprise. Even to me. Finding out that this guy I've been crushing on is more than just a crush. I prolly knew that. But I never owned up to it until that Sunday morning when I cried talking about him. Or perhaps even before that. When I woke up on Saturday night, hard of breathing, afraid that I'll never see him again -- all because I had this bad dream that he died in an accident. I wanted to send him an SMS then and there, just to make sure he was ok. But I didn't want to appear like I cared so much. Sounds crazy, I know. But when you're a woman, experiencing a rare moment of insecurity because object of affection is currently involved with a model whom you're pretty sure has everything you'll never measure up to, you end up feeling there's no sense in trying.

You know how, in your life, everyone you end up liking seem to fall under one category? And then you meet this one person who deviates from your template of the 'likable' guy and you think to yourself, "I'm never going to crush on him." Then boom, one day, you know you're not just crushing on him but you're actually falling for him. Because as you spend more and more time with him, you find out that there's more than that initial reaction of boringness. In fact, you find out that he's everything but boring. What's more, he makes you feel like you don't have to pretend around him. Everything just comes so naturally. It was especially nice when you found out that you can actually drag him to a carinderia and he won't mind. And that he actually enjoys it. Then without a warning, you start thinking about more simple mornings spent with him. More laughters. More talks. And more of those rare, effortless moments that are so mundane but are able to make your heart go aflutter. But just when these moments - or the mere memories of them - paint a smile in your face, he talks about the special girl in his life. Then you realize that these moments only evoke special memories in you and that he'll never see them in the same way you do. Perhaps even then, when you start recalling about these moments more and more, you already felt that you were falling. But since there's this seemingly perfect girl who's making him happy, you tried to suppress the emotions. So hard. That one day, it just came bursting out and you had nothing else to do but confess - even just to yourself - that you've fallen for the one guy you said you never will.

I know this is an overly dramatic post about someone I'm pretty sure is going to stay as just a friend. But sometimes I can't help but wonder why it always has to be a case of unrequited love. And this time, I'm wondering more and more because for the first time in all the unrequited loves of my life, I'm wishing so hard that this is the one that will make me say, "Hey, it wasn't unrequited after all..."


Feeling: Photobucket in love, unfortunately
Curled up in bed with: Fear of Flying Erica Jong
All ears to: Is It You? Cassie

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| hAiLiE posted at 6:42:00 PM | |

Sunday, February 24, 2008

New template

Yes, summer is here. And I decided to upgrade my blog's look to match the season. Makes me wish I'm free to go to the beach...I can almost hear the waves chanting my name. And I miss my healthy, sexy tanned look. Puerto Galera, Pagudpod, Hundred Islands, wait for me. I'll be there by May. Hopefully. ^___^;;

i miss the beach

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| hAiLiE posted at 10:49:00 PM | |

Simba almost re-emerges

It's a curse, I swear. The first time Karen goes out for drinks with new officemates, she ends up making a fool of herself. The only time it didn't happen was with her Eat Bulaga workmates.

In RMH, when Bacth Zion 'graduated' from voice and accent training, we went out for a celebratory inuman. By the end of the session, Karen was all tears, pouring out her heart's deepest secrets, and unknowingly showing things she would have otherwise kept secret had she been sober. And her hair was all wild and wet, hence making her officemates dub her as "Simba".

In QJ, Karen, Rem, Jerico, and another officemate whose name she now forgets, decided to grab some drinks at a place near ABS-CBN. Halfway through the inuman, Hailie barfed and slept until it was time to go home. Amazingly, she was able to take a cab home without manong driver cheating her out of her money. The driver must have taken one look at her and said, "She's almost dead. It doesn't feel right robbing her." Or Karen just might have been lucky enough to have a really pure-hearted cab driver.

The curse shows itself again last Saturday. After ECE and CCT training, Karen and her wavemates went to Dencio's Paseo Center to celebrate having passed the first batch of training. Karen was her usual self: that means she decided to drink Red Horse using straw. She downed four or five bottles. And whaddya know, Karen fell asleep again. She even needed someone to carry her downstairs after the inuman session. The bad thing was, she was wearing a dress. It wasn't quite a Simba moment but it almost morphed into one. Gawd. I don't know why this keeps on happening to me! *whapak*

So to all my wavemates, sorry that you had to tend to me. Thanks Loki for carrying me. Thanks to April whom I distinctly remember saying, "Takpan niyo si Karen." Thanks to BJ, Mark, and Alex who all had to go out of their way to take me home. I swear guys, I'm not always like this. Tee-hee! Babawi ako next time. One round's on me. *winks*


Feeling: Photobucket woozy
Curled up in bed with: False Impression Jeffrey Archer
All ears to: Future Urbandub and Dicta License

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| hAiLiE posted at 6:09:00 PM | |

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Blogging hiatus

I am on blogging hiatus. Aside from my PC breaking down, I am also undergoing graveyard shift training, making it diffiult for me these days to go online. So to all my cyber friends, I apologize if I'm not able to drop by your sites as often as I can. Once I get my groove back (and my PC fixed, of course), I'll go and make my usual rounds of your pages.

Okay, since I'm online I'll go and post some update on what's been happening.

I've left my module writing job and started on a new higher-paying (*winks*) job. I never thought I'll be going back to the call center industry but here I am, on my sixth day at a new call center. This time though, I won't be an agent but a communication coach, which is why I decided to take in the job offer in the first place (and the pay is, of course, very, very appealing as well). Teaching is my thing, I think. I feel most special and worthy when I am able to help out other people. And being a communication coach will allow me to be sort of a teacher. I also realized that I work best when I'm in the night shift -- I am awake until 5am most days anyway and my mind is always a-buzzin' at night time. In the morning, it's just dead. Beside, working at night makes it easy for me to lose weight. Yay! Perfect timing for the beach season.

So yeah, I'm once again in the call center business and I hope that this will be the job (and company) that will make me stay put for more than just 11 months. Wish me luck everyone! Details the next time I go on line.

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Oh BTW, belated Happy Valnetine's Day everyone. Did you know that "Condom Awareness Week" was launched on February 14? Ain't that weird?

One more day 'til the end of "Condom Awareness Week". So, borrowing a phrase from one of my friends: NO GLOVE, NO LOVE!

Ta-ta!


Feeling: Photobucket giddy
All ears to: Complex Dicta License
Curled up in bed with: False Impression Jeffrey Archer

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| hAiLiE posted at 6:01:00 PM | |

Friday, February 15, 2008

Best identity theft protection with LifeLock

With the expansion of the worldwide web and the increasing popularity of online shopping that sometimes requires one to provide information that can easily be tapped into by technology evil geniuses, probably everyone is so afraid of one thing: identity theft.

When I worked as a call center agent before, not a day will pass by that I will not get a caller who has been a victim of someone posing as him/her. Good thing that there are now websites that offer the best protection against identity theft. And LifeLock.com just might be one of the best website of that sort to date. Not only do they assure you that your identity will remain exclusively yours, they also offer hefty discounts that make identity theft prevention so much more affordable.

LifeLock Promotion Codes has already helped lots of ordinary people keep their identity secure. Using a LifeLock.com Promotion Code will allow you to enjoy one of the best identity theft protection programs available for a really tempting discount. LifeLock is very confident that they can deliver a good job, they re the only company that stepped forward with a guaranteee to their identity theft protection services: a whooping US$1,000,000! This only means that if they fail to keep your identity secure, they will shoulder lawyer, accountant, investigator, and case manager fees just to restore your credit and good name. But hey, no worries, nobody is known to have had reasons to incur this guarantee yet.

Money is but a small price to pay to keep you and your loved ones safe. But if you feel like other identity theft protection services are justa tad too expensive, go ahead and use a LifeLock.com Promo Code and get that very needed discount. You won't get disappointed.


| hAiLiE posted at 6:23:00 PM | |

Friday, February 08, 2008

Post-WGA strike

The WGA Strike is abo0ut to end. And about time! Fans are getting restless, waiting for their TV series to resume. But we do know that the end to the writers' strike does not necessarily mean our TV addictions will immediately jump back into new episodes. So, where does this end to the strike leave our favourite programs? TV Guide has the answer.

It's nice to know that Criminal Minds, Desperate Housewives, CSI, Grey's Anatomy, and Ugly Betty are going to get new episodes and that House and Heroes are not exactly being axed (a TBD is better than a "never going back"). One question though: where's Avatar?


Feeling: Photobucket curious
Curled up in bed with: If Only Geri Halliwell
All ears to: the Loco Roco Theme

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| hAiLiE posted at 3:07:00 PM | |

Looking for a good medical school? Easy.

I've been teaching oral communication and skills for IELTS to nursing students in the past five months now. The kids that I teach all have dreams of making it big in their chosen field. Hence, they know that to make it in other countries - the States particularly- they need to still acquire further learning.

With lots of medical schools popping up like mushrooms, one might think it will be hard finding the right school. With Medical Career Training though, finding the right school for medical careers is a breeze. Aside from nursing schools, they also have a great listing on ultrasound technician school. So if you're thinking of scouting the market for a place where you can better yourself as a nurse, an ultrasound tech, a healthcare IT, etc., check out Medical Career Training - they have the best listings of schools from nursing schools down to ultrasound tech school. I know I'll be recommending the site to my students!


| hAiLiE posted at 2:58:00 PM | |

Dreaming of Paris

If there's any place in the world for which I'd give anything just to visit, it would have to be Paris, France. In pictures, Paris is breathtaking, kind of like a place where you can pretend to be a princess.

I've been so fascinated by the place that every once in awhile I find myself scrounging the 'net not only for drool-worthy Paris tourist spots but also for hotels in Paris. Reality check makes me realize though that Hotel Paris just might be too expensive (when and if I do decide to fulfill my dream travel) for my taste. And, based on experience, it may also be a little too stuffy. Hotels do give you a wonderful view into a city but they do have a tendency of taking away that "authentic" feeling of being in a place. A friend of mine suggested that instead of a hotel, I might want to consider a Paris bed and breakfast. He's been to Paris twice (lucky, lucky kid) and his latest Paris adventure landed him in a bed and breakfast. He says that Paris bed and breakfast is the best way to actually enjoy Paris. You get to mingle with Parisians, which means you get to hear the oh-so-romantic French being spoken and you get insider tips on the must-visit places, shops, and restaurants.

All these talks of Paris is again driving me into looking at Paris bed and breakfast then I'll daydream about the day I'll finally afford to actually be there...

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| hAiLiE posted at 2:46:00 PM | |

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

A new high (low?) in fangirlsm

Photoshop does take fangirlsm to new heights:

Ryan's masterpice: Karen and Rafa

Thanks to Ryan M. Tee-hee! ^_^;;


Feeling: Photobucket better
Curled up in bed with: If Only Geri Halliwell
All ears to: Torpedo Eraserheads

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| hAiLiE posted at 8:52:00 PM | |

Of diamonds and engagement rings

Simplicity at its best. That's what the James Allen website is all about. The clean and super accessible web page makes the site so beautiful, almost as beautiful as the diamonds and rings that they have for sale. JamesAllen.com does have a wide selection of anniversary rings and wedding rings that it almost makes me wish I am getting married.

Well, JamesAllen.com does have other diamond jewelry available and hearts' day is just around the corner. If you're thinking of wooing me by Valentine's head over their site. Y0u'll stumble upon a lot of things that will make me über happy. +winks+


| hAiLiE posted at 4:51:00 PM | |

I am 2:11 a.m.

Stumbled on this on Mika's LJ. She got me hooked when she wrote, "the questions sounded smart". Besides, it's interesting to know exactly what time of the day you are. I got an interesting answer:



Your time of day has a split personality -- sometimes it's sweat-streaked and loud, and you're on the dance floor, getting your third wind, and shouting lyrics like you'll never run out of energy. You are the time of night that carves itself into your memory forever, because you'll never forget how much you love these people and this moment and this song. It's not always about unforgettable parties, though. Sometimes your late night (err… early morning) burst of energy happens when you're home alone. Those are the times when you say, "I flat out refuse to go to sleep until I finish reading this book, or typing this page, or reorganizing my entire closet." In either case, you are the time of night when it feels sort of forbidden to be awake, but you love accomplishing something special long after everyone else went to bed. And hey -- you can always catch up on sleep tomorrow, right?

The answer is so freaking true! I just feel most awake at around 2 in the morning. When all my housemates will be sleeping, I'll have a hard time getting some winks as my mind will go, "Wait, time's a wasting. There's still so many things to do!" It's at this time that I usually try to finish a book. Or squeeze in a few more episodes of "Ugly Betty" or "Coffee Prince" or "America's Next Top Model". It's also during this time that I try to finish a few more of my office work.

The quiz is such a fun one. I encourage everyone to try it out. ;-)


Feeling: Photobucket frustrated
Curled up in bed with: If Only Geri Halliwell
All ears to: Ale Bloomfields

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| hAiLiE posted at 3:39:00 PM | |

Get your money's worth with Price Point office desks

I remember back in 2006, my previous company decided to transfer offices because the company was expanding and the current space is just way too small. Being close to our operations manager and our HR assistant, I was able to pick up some word on how difficult it is to actually find quality office furniture that falls within the budget. They were most concerned with the office desks, because those that they see around look like they'll give in to heavy weight. They finally decided on buying the expensive desks, in the belief that they are of good quality.

Lo and behold. Two months later, the desks - already out of warranty - started to show signs of weariness. And the company had to buy new ones.

If I've only known about Price Point office desks back then, I could have tipped off our operations manager and saved our company lots of money. Price Point desks have been servicing UK offices for two years now. And they have certainly established a name that's closely connected to simplicity, affordability, and durability. Their offering? Instead of the 18mm thick top that most desks have, Price Point comes with 25mm thick top. Also accounting for the sturdiness of their desks are the double upstand legs and 2mm thick edging (compared to other desks' 0.6mm).

Perhaps the most inviting feature of Price Point desks is the price. Their desks sell from £53 (to look at what's being offered and to check out the price listings, click here) -- definitely a huge difference from the £125 our company paid for new desks back in 2006. To top it all, Price Point Desks come with an eight year guarantee.

If you're thinking of buying office furniture, please don't make the same mistake as my former company. Think quality within budget and get your money's worth with Price Point office desks.


| hAiLiE posted at 3:16:00 PM | |

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

More awards and tags

Got some really nice tags and awards from one of the nicest cyberfriends I ever had, Hye. Here's the awards she bestowed on me:

Friendship Award

This award says, "It feels great to have a friend like you" - the very same thing that I want to say the sweet lady who gave the award (and the same thing I want to say to those whom I shall pass the award to - Kistna, Macy, Annabs, Fran, Angel, Chochi, Mabie, Rem, and Jex).

token of gratitude from Hye

This pink one is something that Hye herself created. She dubs it as a "small token to all my friends who had been great and wonderful visitors and commentators of Space of Reality". It was a super nice gesture and it's very much appreciated! It's not hard to visit her blog everyday, anyway. It's a fun read and very intellectually stimulating. As I mentioned before, if you're looking for braingasm, visit her site as well. You won't regret it. =)

On to the tags, all from Hye as well...tee-hee!

I'll skip the tag about defining love because I haven't really found the time to stop and think about it. I think love is something I just take as it is and has never really defined up to now. I'll try to define it before the day of hearts (which is coming pretty, pretty soon).

The second tag is about my five favourite posts: one will have to be about my family, one about my friends, myself, something I love, and the last will have to be of my choice. Here's my rundown:

1) [Family] Isang masayang mini-family reunion sa Pansol, Laguna -- This one is actually on my Multiply account. It's a collection of photos taken during a family reunion.
2) [Friends] Puerto Galera 2007 (Anna's and Jean's cameras) -- Still on my Multiply. But I love this post because it commemorates the 10th anniversary of a wonderful friendship.
3) [Myself] Advice ni Hailie para kay Karen -- It's in Filipino but to those who won't be able to understand it, it's a testimony to how vulnerable I can be when I fall truly and deeply in love but it also attests to the fact that I'm strong and can pick up after a bad break-up. Hailie is Karen and Karen is Hailie, this post sees my stronger side talking to the hurting side of me and telling her that all will be okay.
4) [Something I love] Hailie's simple joys #2 -- Just goes to show how easy it is to make me happy. I get ecstatic over the simplest things.
5) [Anything goes] Pochoy!!! (^_^)v -- Because I'm super in love with Pochoy. And along with that is my love for the band Dicta License. Since they have decided to disband last November (*weeps*), I've decided to reserve the last spot for them.

Now on to the list of Things/people I love and hate...

The "HATE" list:
* People who smoke while in public utility transportations
* Racists and discriminatory people
* Garbage lying on beautiful landscapes
* RATS!!!
* And COCKROACHES!!!

The "LOVE" list:
* My family
* My friends
* Smart, funny, and socially aware guys
* Blogging
* Colours and colouring books
* Anything Hello Kitty
* My iPod
* The DS Lite (which I'm about to get in a few weeks!)

Anyone who stumbles upon this and fancies doing the tags above, feel free to do so. ;-)


Feeling: Photobucket loved
Curled up in bed with: If Only Geri Halliwell
All ears to: 3 Libras A Perfect Circle

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| hAiLiE posted at 10:00:00 PM | |

A great guide to online casinos

Online casinos are big nowadays. But with so many online casinos, one can get iffy to try out any casinos that's spotted in the worldwide web.

That's when GambLux.com comes in. The site's homepage has a lot of things going on but the seemingly cluttered first page fulfills what GambLux.com is all about -- presenting a detailed (and up-to-date) information of the best casino online. Aside from dishing out a very useful casino guide, this site is also an amazing gambling portal. Click on the very accessible links above this site and you'll have in your hands access to a variety of games: baccarat, blackjack, poker, roulette, and so much more.

So if you have money to spend and is wondering where you can place your money, head over to GambLux.com.